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Just Give Me A Reason

If you've been checking into my blog in the past you know I have a passion for music. It can be so relate-able & therapeutic. A song can have many meanings for different people. 

When I first heard "Just Give Me A Reason" but Pink & Nate Ruess I just plain liked it. I really didn't even feel a particular "pull" to the song. Earlier this month when I was listening to the song a connection really rung home & I posted this status on Facebook:

This reminds me of the year after Landan passed away. We fought so much, I told Andy all the time I didn't want to be married anymore, etc. I just didn't want to be loved by anyone for awhile. I wanted to feel empty. So thankful we were able to overcome such a horrible time that most couples don't make it through together. Even though we bicker I couldn't imagine being with anyone else.

It's weird to reflect on a time when I thought I would be "ok" without Andy. I can still remember how mean things got that year after Landan died. We even got into one physical fight that included pushing & screaming. I still wonder how the cops weren't called that time. Atleast three holes were put into our apartment walls during that time as well. It was just very volatile. We spent alot of time apart from each other. It had to have made Landan sad to look down on two of his favorite people and see how mean they were being to each other. Kinda makes me sad to think about that. But I'm just that things turned around.  I guess in some way I can thank my anxiety for that. After having anxiety for awhile it got to a point where I just wanted to be home, with Andy when I was anxious. I needed him. Shortly after we got pregnant with Layne and were so excited. So in love from the beginning. He's changed our lives just like Landan did & continues to. 

I feel very blessed to have my family & the friends I do have. Those are the most important things in my life.

"Just Give Me A Reason"

Pink (feat. Nate Ruess)

Right from the start
You were a thief
You stole my heart
And I your willing victim
I let you see the parts of me
That weren't all that pretty
And with every touch you fixed them

Now you've been talking in your sleep, oh, oh
Things you never say to me, oh, oh
Tell me that you've had enough
Of our love, our love

Just give me a reason
Just a little bit's enough
Just a second we're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again
It's in the stars
It's been written in the scars on our hearts
We're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again

I'm sorry I don't understand
Where all of this is coming from
I thought that we were fine
(Oh, we had everything)
Your head is running wild again
My dear we still have everythin'
And it's all in your mind
(Yeah, but this is happenin')

You've been havin' real bad dreams, oh, oh
Used to lie so close to me, oh, oh
There's nothing more than empty sheets
Between our love, our love
Oh, our love, our love

Just give me a reason
Just a little bit's enough
Just a second we're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again
I never stopped
You're still written in the scars on my heart
You're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again

Our tear ducts can rust
I'll fix it for us
We're collecting dust
But our love's enough
You're holding it in
You're pouring a drink
No nothing is as bad as it seems
We'll come clean

Just give me a reason
Just a little bit's enough
Just a second we're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again
It's in the stars
It's been written in the scars on our hearts
That we're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again

Just give me a reason
Just a little bit's enough
Just a second we're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again
It's in the stars
It's been written in the scars on our hearts
That we're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again

Oh, we can learn to love again
Oh, we can learn to love again
Oh, oh, that we're not broken just bent
And we can learn to love again

Where did my little boy go?

My sweet rainbow, Layne. 

Your growing up too fast! 

You don't even want me to call you "my baby" anymore. 

Your just "Layne" lol 

Well your still my baby anyway.
He's even playing tball! 

I'll have a post on that later!